My last post was about starting over; and although things are much different now than they were a year a half ago, it wasn’t the “starting over” I had planned.
Shortly after I wrote last, I got pregnant and married- in that order and for no other reason than we wanted to be pregnant and married. Turns out, my little Bailey helped cure my medical issues. I had no issues with my insulin resistance while pregnant and only suffered from borderline preeclampsia the last few weeks of pregnancy.
I was supposed to go back in to check my insulin resistance afterward but never made the appointment; but instead, found myself without insurance as my favorite job let me go. I’m about 98% sure that my sugar issues don’t exist anymore. I don’t have the sleepiness I had before, and I’m 15 lbs down from my pre-pregnancy weight without trying. That’s why I think Miss Bailey fixed me.
So, here starts another go at transformation: the transformation of my mind. Although kicking and screaming, I’ve almost quit smoking (just three yesterday and one today!). And about two days ago, something clicked and I got my old mindset back that I don’t need to eat to entertain myself.
If you ever get the chance, read the book Women Food and God by Geneen Roth. If you’ve never been able to figure out why you suffer with being overweight or underweight, Roth hits it on the head. Somewhere along the way, we all learned that we were not enough or we were too much. We learned we’d never have enough if we didn’t take it right now or that we didn’t deserve what we had. Whichever of these is true about us is the start to understanding why we don’t like our bodies the way they are.
The remedy is to love your body. Love yourself and you’ll view your body and nutrition differently. You’ll treat yourself better and think about living a long healthy life and the minimal maintenance you need to do today to add extra days to the end of your life.
I looked in the mirror and realized that I CAN reach my goals for my body and that I DO have control over how I look (to an extent). I can already feel that shifting my mind to loving myself into being fit is loads better than hating myself into being skinny. Who’d have thought?! 😛
Check out this neat website I found: MyBodyGallery.com. You can put in your physical specs and find photos of people who look like you. Helps us get some perspective. Just remember that every change you want to make starts with a baby step, or as my mom says, “Little Bites!”